That is a question I have asked myself repeatedly since Monday about 3:45. I haven't blogged lately because I was bursting with excitement thinking Aaron and I were finally pregnant. We only told a few select people our GREAT news, and we had hopes of sharing the word Monday after my 1st real Dr's appointment(I was about 10 1/2weeks). Well here come the blow....
Aaron and I both took a half day on Monday to make the drive to Beaumont to see my OB. We were so excited and secretly hoped for an ultrasound. Well we get there and they can't find a heart beat (which is pretty common when you aren't very far along) so the nurse moves us to the ultrasound room. Aaron and I are so excited we get to see our little miracle for the first time. Then I get this horrible feeling when the ultrasound tech informs me she must do a vaginal ultrasound(I am start saying can I please see it) about 45 minutes later she has us go back to our room. And we didn't get to see a thing. I get in the room and instantly start crying. about 15 minutes later the Dr comes in and is not his usually cheery self and he says,
"I hate to tell you this but there is no baby"
my response "Excuse me, what do you mean"
He says " Lets just say this like another miscarriage(I had one last April) he said what this is called is blighted ovum. Its where an egg is fertilized and attaches to the wall but no baby ever grows, but the sac does. You experience all the signs and symptoms of pregnancy down to the
After that point I toned him out and tried controlling my sobs. Aaron later informed me that the Dr gave us an option of letting my body
naturally miscarrying the sac or we could do a D and C.
after much talk and consideration we decided for the the D and C, I have that scheduled tomorrow at noon. Please pray that
things will be okay and Aaron and I both can move forward in this.
